Musings on life...

I was replying to a blog earlier today and ended up writing a rather large chunk. I thought it to be coherent enough to be included here as blog entry:

"I think that life, here and now, is exactly as it "should" be. I think that it is the product of more than just what I've done. Rather the product of what my friends, my family, my government, my society, stretching back through the generations to the dawn of time have done. I think life, this world in which we live, is an extention of all of us - our hopes and dreams, our successes, our failures, and our beliefs. Looking too long at one aspect of one life causes me to lose focus on the beauty of the tapestry as a whole - a single point on a single thread is rather boring and unattractive when taken out of context.

The interesting thing to me is that no matter whether I am afraid and feel inadequate to a situation or supremely confident and capable, the results, in the world around me are largely beyond my control. I simply focus on doing my best to show up for whatever life throws me every day. If I can find someone to help, even in the smallest way, I can forget, for a moment the maelstrom inside my head and proceed without fear.

I no longer spend a lot of energy planning for the future. Rather, I wake up everyday and show up, to the best of my ability, for the adventure that is life every day. I listen to my inspiration more and more and it has led me without fail to what I "should" be doing moment to moment, hour to hour, and day to day."

I didn't realize until after I had written this that I had failed to apply the priciples I espouse here in my own life today. I've been running around with a constant, low level of anxiety all day. Not your full on, shitball crazy panic mind you, just nervous and anxious. The beauty is this, and it works this way every time in my world, as soon as I quit focusing on my BS and got on with trying to help somebody else, I began to feel peace. I don't really know why it works and, I suppose, I don't really care - it works if I can just get out of the way.

RCS